A Journey 2 Sanity

Kansas City Chiefs - Super Bowl Champions 2020 Charlie Neibergall/Associated Press Super Bowl LIV Tonight we watched the Super Bowl at some good friends' house, ate some good food (I just stuck with a chicken nacho sauce and chips), and watched our Kansas City Chiefs bring home victory! I am proud of our Missouri teams with their wins; first the Stanley Cup with the St. Louis Blues and now the KC Chiefs with the Super Bowl. I had a busy day with grocery shopping, making dip, and then the game. It is 10:30 pm and I'm tired, but not in the amount of pain I've been in the past few weeks since my surgery. I call this a win!  Meredith the Artist We got pictures this morning from Rebekah. It seems that Meredith was supposed to be napping or at least having quiet time on her bed today; however, when she went to check on Meredith she found a budding artist on her hands. The look of pride Meredith has in her picture just tugs at your heart! How can you get mad at

A Long Road Ahead I have so many things running through my mind that I'm not even sure where to start. I still struggle with losing weight. I spent almost a year with daily migraines--they started out of the blue and went away out of the blue. Still not sure what happened there, but I have a feeling it had something to do with the cortisone shots I was receiving in my back to help with the chronic pain I experienced there. With all of the pain over the past five years, I have not improved my eating habits--junk food became my go-to for helping me deal with the pain. I also have not been able to exercise like I want to.  On December 30, 2019, I went in to have my L5-S1 fused once again (the first fusion from five years ago never completely fused). This surgery was more extensive with removing the metal cage that was not fused, placing a new device in that space, adding bone taken from my hip to help with bone growth, and replacing the screws in my back. I am almost 5 week

I'm back, and back with a vengeance. I ran into health issues with my migraines and heart, but we think we have it all figured out. The doctor prescribed a new medicine for my migraines, and it is working! The cardiologist thinks he has figured out the heart pain, and it isn't as scary as I thought it was. Life is good. 😎 This week starts a #newyearnewme mindset. I will walk every day, and in some cases twice a day! The days I don't walk twice I will add yoga into my after school routine. I completed 18 minutes of walking on a small incline this morning (it would have been longer had I not hit snooze twice!). I'm excited to start the extra exercises in the afternoon. And with the go-ahead from my doctor, I feel confident that I am not hurting myself more than helping. 🙌 I'm becoming more adventurous with food. I received a Mealthy Pot (just like an Instant Pot, just a different brand) and use it all the time! I recently had lemon-garlic chicken that was awes

Sleepless Nights Once again I am up at 2 am and can't get back to sleep. I'm not sure if it is because of the dogs playing and I don't have the heart to put the puppy back in the "crate" (which happens to be a bedroom) all by herself, if it is because I have so much on my mind, or if it is because of both things. I'm beginning to think it is a little bit of both. I know these sleepless nights is not good for my health. I need to get more than 4 - 6 hours of the sleep that I'm getting each night. (I'm averaging 4.5 to 5 hours.) I always have told myself to look for the silver lining around the problems that I'm facing. The silver lining around this problem of not being able to sleep is I am able to get some doctoral work done. Tonight, I found several research articles and printed them off. I also downloaded some documents to help me organize my articles and my time so I complete assignments on time. I do believe I belong in the Procrastinators

Well, not exactly Keto living. I'm not strictly keto right now, but I'm trying! I craved a shake after dinner tonight and was sooo tempted to get one when I ran back into town. NSV: I did not stop to get a shake! Instead, I made a cup of coffee when I got home and put a little whip cream in it. So the whip cream probably wasn't keto friendly, but it was better than a whole shake! I'm not noticing any difference in energy level yet. But, I'm sure that is to come as time passes and I cut more and more sugar and wheat out of my diet. I did get more water in my system, which is always a good thing! :o) I did hit an anxiety high this evening though. I notice that the anxiety goes up when people refuse to make a decision and there is nothing but indecision swirling around me. I found a really neat graphic on Facebook today that explains anxiety, and me, very well! I was at the Intolerance of Uncertainty tonight. And most days, I'm struggling to pay attentio

Has it really been six years since I started this blog? Six years of struggling off and on with my anxiety and depression, unhealthy eating and then getting back on the wagon. Well, six years later I now have a granddaughter that I must become healthy for. If not for myself, then I have to get healthy so I can live to see her accomplishments through life. So, this week, I start again. I found my new mantra: Jump in, commit, just do it! That second word...commit..man, is that a difficult word to say. It is one that makes my heart race, shoots my anxiety up, and makes me question whether I'm doing the right thing. I didn't have this much trouble committing to marrying my husband! LOL I love my sugar and carbs, my pastas, breads, Starbucks...but I love my family more. I must commit for my family. So, how am I going to do it this time? Keto on, baby! I started today, but faltered some because of food we had in the house. Had it not been for the sweets in the house (and Starbuck