A Journey 2 Sanity

A Rough Day Today has been a rough day. As my recovery from surgery drags on, I have more energy but nothing to expend that energy on. I can't clean. I can't decorate. I can't fold alllllll of my clothes that are on my new-to-me round chair and then put them away. All I can do is sit here and look at the chaos around me. I would go work out, but I can't. I don't know where my tennis shoes are and have looked to the best of my ability. It will take digging further into my closet or looking under the bed to find them, I think. So, I think of all these things I can't do, try to stay positive about the things I can do, but today the toll has taken its place on me mentally. I have discovered that while I may be an introvert, I am also definitely an extrovert. I believe my daughter called this an ambiavert (or something like that). I have limited human contact. I'm asleep when my husband leaves and then he doesn't get home until around 6 or so. Then he

Kansas City Chiefs - Super Bowl Champions 2020 Charlie Neibergall/Associated Press Super Bowl LIV Tonight we watched the Super Bowl at some good friends' house, ate some good food (I just stuck with a chicken nacho sauce and chips), and watched our Kansas City Chiefs bring home victory! I am proud of our Missouri teams with their wins; first the Stanley Cup with the St. Louis Blues and now the KC Chiefs with the Super Bowl. I had a busy day with grocery shopping, making dip, and then the game. It is 10:30 pm and I'm tired, but not in the amount of pain I've been in the past few weeks since my surgery. I call this a win!  Meredith the Artist We got pictures this morning from Rebekah. It seems that Meredith was supposed to be napping or at least having quiet time on her bed today; however, when she went to check on Meredith she found a budding artist on her hands. The look of pride Meredith has in her picture just tugs at your heart! How can you get mad at

A Long Road Ahead I have so many things running through my mind that I'm not even sure where to start. I still struggle with losing weight. I spent almost a year with daily migraines--they started out of the blue and went away out of the blue. Still not sure what happened there, but I have a feeling it had something to do with the cortisone shots I was receiving in my back to help with the chronic pain I experienced there. With all of the pain over the past five years, I have not improved my eating habits--junk food became my go-to for helping me deal with the pain. I also have not been able to exercise like I want to.  On December 30, 2019, I went in to have my L5-S1 fused once again (the first fusion from five years ago never completely fused). This surgery was more extensive with removing the metal cage that was not fused, placing a new device in that space, adding bone taken from my hip to help with bone growth, and replacing the screws in my back. I am almost 5 week